Month: May 2018

Behold, I will give your enemy into your hand, and you shall do to him as it shall seem good to you. I Samuel 24:4 I won’t go into the details, but once, someone whom I felt had previously offended me, came to me, requiring my assistance. I gave it, but inside, I gloated a…
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God has given him into my hand . . .I Samuel 23:7 When I want something badly enough, but my conscience says no, I must either choose not to do the thing or I must manipulate it, selling it to my conscience. In the case of my drug use, it was not that hard. I…
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. . . All of you have conspired against me? I Samuel 22:8 When I dumped social media, like many things, I did it impulsively, without warning anyone. When readers did not see the blog on Facebook, some assumed I had quit writing and others assumed I had relapsed. One friend took it personally though. Unbeknownst…
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Saul thought to make David fall by the hand of the Philistines. I Samuel 18:25 The other day, in the kitchen, my wife did something that bothered me a little. At the time, I was confident that my irritation was justified, so I turned on the cold shoulder. After a few minutes, she asked, “Is…
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Today marks a return to social media for The Seeds of the Spirit blog. The blog was never gone. I have been writing daily, but I left Facebook in November due to my own unhealthy uses of social media. Honestly, I still struggle a little bit with trying to use something for good that I…
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And Saul was very angry . . . He said, “They have ascribed to David ten thousands, and to me they have ascribed thousands . . . ”I Samuel 18:8 While in college, I once listened to a popular athlete brag that he could date any woman on campus. They all want me. I was…
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You come to me with a sword and with a spear and with a javelin, but I come to you in the name of the Lord of hosts . . . I Samuel 17:45 As I was contemplating today’s passage about David and Goliath – imagining some contrived metaphor about giants and addiction – a friend…
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The Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart. I Samuel 16:7 Life is short. Eat the cake. Now, I’m all for embracing life, but I’m pretty sure that this is the kind of thinking that got me into chemical dependency treatment. I lived for…
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The Lord regretted that he had made Saul king over Israel. 1 Samuel 15:35 Though I never really doubted my responsibility in my addiction, I did see the attraction of believing that God’s sovereignty absolved me of accountability. If God is in complete control, then He chose for me to be an addict. I am not responsible…
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To obey is better than sacrifice . . .I Samuel 15:22 When my addiction came to light, it was painful . . . but liberating. I could finally talk about it without worrying if everyone knew, because everyone knew. Previously, I felt that I was the only struggling Christian, but as I opened up about…
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