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Month: September 2023

If I Were In Charge

So Abraham rose early in the morning and took bread and a skin of water and gave it to Hagar, putting it on her shoulder, along with the child, and sent her away. Genesis 21:14 We went to see the latest Christian film last night, about an alcoholic who met Christ and was immediately transformed,…
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Resenting My Own Mess

But Sarah saw the son of Hagar the Egyptian, whom she had borne to Abraham, laughing. So she said to Abraham, “Cast out this slave woman with her son, for the son of this slave woman shall not be heir with my son Isaac.” Genesis 21:9-10 When in treatment for my opioid addiction, I resented…
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People Are Stupid

Abraham was a hundred years old when his son Isaac was born to him. And Sarah said, “God has made laughter for me; everyone who hears will laugh over me. Who would have said to Abraham that Sarah would nurse children? Yet I have borne him a son in his old age.” Genesis 21:5-6 Working…
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I Want What I Want Right Now

The LORD visited Sarah as he had said, and the LORD did to Sarah as he had promised. And Sarah conceived and bore Abraham a son in his old age at the time of which God had spoken to him. Genesis 21:1-2 I’m not a very patient person. I’m impulsive, wanting what I want right…
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Amends

Then Abimelech took sheep and oxen, and male servants and female servants, and gave them to Abraham, and returned Sarah his wife to him. And Abimelech said, “Behold, my land is before you; dwell where it pleases you.” Genesis 20:14-15 While working through the twelve steps, eventually I got to step nine, which said I…
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When I Lied Yesterday

Abraham said, “I did it because I thought, There is no fear of God at all in this place, and they will kill me because of my wife.’ Besides, she is indeed my sister, the daughter of my father though not the daughter of my mother, and she became my wife.” Genesis 20:11-12 I lied…
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Save Me from Myself

Then God said to him in the dream, “Yes, I know that you have done this in the integrity of your heart, and it was I who kept you from sinning against me. Therefore I did not let you touch her. Genesis 20:6 Prior to my last relapse, I could sense God warning me. Don’t…
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Triggers

From there Abraham journeyed . . . and he sojourned in Gerar. And Abraham said of Sarah his wife, “She is my sister.” And Abimelech king of Gerar sent and took Sarah. Genesis 20:1-2 In treatment, my chemical dependency counselors wisely insisted I work on Relapse Prevention, identifying triggers that caused me to once use…
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Me First

So they made their father drink wine that night. And the firstborn went in and lay with her father. He did not know when she lay down or when she arose. Genesis 19:33 At the core of the destructive behavior of addiction, is a profound self-centeredness. It’s not that those addicted weigh their needs against…
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When My Friends Made Me Eat Ice Cream

So they made their father drink wine that night. Genesis 19:33 My wife and I went out to dinner with friends the other night. It was a good time, and I made healthy choices at the restaurant. When we were done though, someone (it may have been me) suggested that we go across the street…
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