Category: Faith in the Struggle

If I’m a Christian, Why Am I Struggling with Drugs?

And his comrade answered, “This is no other than the sword of Gideon the son of Joash, a man of Israel; God has given into his hand Midian and all the camp.” Judges 7:14 This may sound absurd to you, but there was a time when I expected that my belief in God should shield…
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I Just Need to Know You’re There

But if you are afraid to go down, go down to the camp with Purah your servant. And you shall hear what they say, and afterward your hands shall be strengthened to go down against the camp. Judges 7:10-11 When my son was a newborn, we found great joy in rocking him to sleep every…
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Who Changed My Life?

The LORD said to Gideon, “The people with you are too many for me to give the Midianites into their hand, lest Israel boast over me, saying, ‘My own hand has saved me.’” Judges 7:2 I’ve often said that I’m not responsible for having the disease of addiction, but I alone am responsible to seek…
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What’s in a Name?

Therefore on that day Gideon was called Jerubbaal, that is to say, “Let Baal contend against him,” because he broke down his altar. Judges 6:32 When my addiction came to light and as word began to spread, I wanted to run and hide. I strongly considered moving eight states away as the thought of a…
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I Need a Sign

Then Gideon said to God, “Let not your anger burn against me; let me speak just once more. Please let me test just once more with the fleece. Please let it be dry on the fleece only, and on all the ground let there be dew.” Judges 6:39 Believing in God, I’ve also believed that…
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I Feel Like You’re Judging Me

But Joash said to all who stood against him, “Will you contend for Baal? Or will you save him? Whoever contends for him shall be put to death by morning. If he is a god, let him contend for himself, because his altar has been broken down.” Judges 6:31 In our current culture, there are…
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What Do My Kids Need from Me?

Then the men of the town said to Joash, “Bring out your son, that he may die, for he has broken down the altar of Baal and cut down the Asherah beside it.” But Joash said to all who stood against him, “Will you contend for Baal? Or will you save him?” Judges 6:30-31 For…
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Faith in the Doubt

So Gideon took ten men of his servants and did as the LORD had told him. But because he was too afraid of his family and the men of the town to do it by day, he did it by night. Judges 6:27 In my addiction, I wanted the easy way out. I didn’t want…
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My First Book

That night the LORD said to him, “Take your father’s bull, and the second bull seven years old, and pull down the altar of Baal that your father has, and cut down the Asherah that is beside it . . .” Judges 6:25 Long before I wrote Freedom in the Fight, I wrote another book.…
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Losing Myself

And the angel of the LORD appeared to him and said to him, “The LORD is with you, O mighty man of valor.” Judges 6:12 I grew up knowing that Christians didn’t drink or smoke and that those who did were bound for hell. I developed this idea that being a Christian meant forgoing all…
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