Category: Faith in the Struggle

Damn the Consequences

And all the people answered, “His blood be on us and on our children!” Matthew 27:25 I hear this story often from those who have relapsed and honestly, it terrifies me. The story usually goes something like this: I was clean and sober, going to meetings and to church. I felt like I was doing pretty…
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Kill the Addiction or It Kills You

And throwing down the pieces of silver into the temple, he departed, and he went and hanged himself. Matthew 27:5 In residency, I learned this satirical maxim: Everyone quits smoking eventually. It was a sardonic acceptance of the reality that the smoker either kills the habit or the habit eventually kills the smoker. I was unaware…
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Kill the Addiction or It Kills You

And throwing down the pieces of silver into the temple, he departed, and he went and hanged himself. Matthew 27:5 In residency, I learned this satirical maxim: Everyone quits smoking eventually. It was a sardonic acceptance of the reality that the smoker either kills the habit or the habit eventually kills the smoker. I was unaware…
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Two-Faced Faith

“I do not know the man.” And immediately the rooster crowed. Matthew 26:74 While in college, I spent a couple of summers as a counselor at a Christian camp. There, in that environment, I was genuinely interested in living the life of faith and discipleship. I noticed on the weekends though, when I returned to a…
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Two-Faced Faith

“I do not know the man.” And immediately the rooster crowed. Matthew 26:74 While in college, I spent a couple of summers as a counselor at a Christian camp. There, in that environment, I was genuinely interested in living the life of faith and discipleship. I noticed on the weekends though, when I returned to a…
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An Addict by Any Other Name . . .

All who take the sword will perish by the sword. Matthew 26:52 It’s not uncommon in Christian recovery circles to hear that you’re not an addict, you’re a Christian. The belief is that one cannot be both, and that if you identify as struggling with an addiction, it will be a self-fulfilling and self-defeating prophecy. To…
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The Judas Kiss

The one I will kiss is the man; seize him. Matthew 26:48 I feel some sympathy for Judas. I know he pretended to be Jesus’ friend, while betraying him, but I think he unintentionally got in way over his head. He loved money, and as the treasurer for the disciples, he embezzled their funds. He gradually…
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The Judas Kiss

The one I will kiss is the man; seize him. Matthew 26:48 I feel some sympathy for Judas. I know he pretended to be Jesus’ friend, while betraying him, but I think he unintentionally got in way over his head. He loved money, and as the treasurer for the disciples, he embezzled their funds. He gradually…
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Time for Big Boy Pants

Sleep and take your rest later on. See, the hour is at hand . . . Matthew 26:45 While enslaved to drugs, I wanted out. I was tired of the paranoia, withdrawal, lying, and continual hiding. It was a miserable life and I wanted help, but I avoided it because I knew the mountain of misery…
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Time for Big Boy Pants

Sleep and take your rest later on. See, the hour is at hand . . . Matthew 26:45 While enslaved to drugs, I wanted out. I was tired of the paranoia, withdrawal, lying, and continual hiding. It was a miserable life and I wanted help, but I avoided it because I knew the mountain of misery…
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