Category: Faith in the Struggle

What If I Always Made Good Decisions?

And David inquired of the LORD, “Shall I pursue after this band? Shall I overtake them?” He answered him, “Pursue, for you shall surely overtake and shall surely rescue.” 1 Samuel 30:8 I’ve often wondered what my life would have looked like if I’d have simply always done what God wanted instead of doing whatever…
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Is this Where You Come to Play Your Rock ‘n’ Roll?

And Achish answered David and said, “I know that you are as blameless in my sight as an angel of God.” 1 Samuel 29:9 Last night, as my wife and I were discussing today’s blog, she shared the following memory from her teenage years. In the story, she and her friends were at a local…
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Demanding Vitamins in Treatment

He refused and said, “I will not eat.” 1 Samuel 28:23 While in treatment for my opioid addiction, one of our counselors made the mistake of mentioning a specific health supplement, which he believed improved his brain function. Instantly, all the guys in treatment wanted to be on it. Even as a physician, knowing there…
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When I Got a Bad Reference for Medical School

And Samuel said, “Why then do you ask me, since the LORD has turned from you and become your enemy?” 1 Samuel 28:16 I transferred colleges between my Sophomore and Junior years and so, when it came time to ask college professors for references for my medical school application, I didn’t know any of them…
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I’ll Do Anything to Change

Saul answered, “I am in great distress, for the Philistines are warring against me, and God has turned away from me and answers me no more, either by prophets or by dreams. Therefore I have summoned you to tell me what I shall do.” 1 Samuel 28:15 In one terrifying moment, back when I realized…
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Shortcut to Hell

And he said, “Divine for me by a spirit and bring up for me whomever I shall name to you.” 1 Samuel 28:8 I’m all about feeling good. It’s not that I feel bad. My mood is great, and I feel fine. I just always want to feel even better. Desiring happiness or joy isn’t…
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My Secret Life

So Saul disguised himself and put on other garments and went, he and two men with him. And they came to the woman by night. 1 Samuel 28:8 As I was thinking about today’s passage yesterday, an amusing memory popped up from my early teen years. It was summer and I was mowing lawns, making…
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If that’s What a Christian Looks Like

Then Saul said to his servants, “Seek out for me a woman who is a medium, that I may go to her and inquire of her.” And his servants said to him, “Behold, there is a medium at En-dor.” 1 Samuel 28:7 Years ago, while working the ER, I regularly encountered those who came to…
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Bad Influence

And Achish trusted David, thinking, “He has made himself an utter stench to his people Israel; therefore he shall always be my servant.” 1 Samuel 27:12 Because I grew up in a dry home – no alcohol – I grappled with my own desire to drink when I went off to college. I told myself…
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Forgiveness Doesn’t Equal Trust

So David went his way, and Saul returned to his place. 1 Samuel 26:25 In my last relapse, I tore our lives apart and hurt my wife terribly. Initially, we both assumed our marriage was over, but she didn’t leave. I went to treatment, committed myself to faith and recovery, and then returned home where…
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