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Category: Faith in the Struggle

Cosmetic Changes

I will give Pharaoh Hophra king of Egypt into the hand of his enemies and into the hand of those who seek his life, as I gave Zedekiah king of Judah into the hand of Nebuchadnezzar king of Babylon . . . Jeremiah 44:30 I have a weird diet plan that I always think is going…
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Why Do You Keep Doing It?

Why do you commit this great evil against yourselves . . .? Jeremiah 44:7 It’s always painful to watch others pursue their destructive appetites. Even as one who has known the slavery of addiction, it’s difficult for me to understand why some return repeatedly to drugs, food, or pornography despite knowing the disastrous consequences. In…
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Anything but That

You sent me to the Lord your God, saying, “Pray for us to the Lord our God, and whatever the Lord our God says, declare to us and we will do it.” Jeremiah 42:20 When my life began to unravel in my addiction, I promised God that I would do anything if he would deliver me…
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I Can’t Stand It Anymore

Pray to the Lord your God . . . that the Lord your God may show us the way we should go, and the thing that we should do. Jeremiah 42:2-3 A couple years ago, my old truck developed a metal on metal grinding noise. I’m no mechanic, but as the sound grew worse, I knew…
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Truth on the Shelf

As Jehudi read three or four columns, the king would cut them off with a knife and throw them into the fire . . . Jeremiah 36:23 Because I believe that God will always forgive me, I have often done wrong today with the intention of simply asking forgiveness tomorrow. I’ve known the truth, but…
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Cycle of Misery

You recently repented and did what was right in my eyes . . . but then you turned around and profaned my name . . . Jeremiah 34:15,16 Though I find the Israelites recurrent pattern of sin-discipline-repentance to be frustrating, I must admit that this is the story of my life. I overeat, feel guilty, promise never…
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Everything Not-God

They have turned to me their back and not their face. Jeremiah 32:33 In my addiction, I turned my back on God. As the pursuit of the pill consumed me, I abandoned everything important in life, including my faith. I didn’t have time or energy for God, but in my shame, I also just couldn’t stand…
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If I Knew Then What I Know Now

I will be their God, and they shall be my people . . . For I will forgive their iniquity, and I will remember their sin no more. Jeremiah 31:33-34* Yesterday, as I was preparing a talk on addiction, it occurred to me how little I understood about the subject 10 years ago. Medical school…
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Do It Like An Addict

You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13 As I gradually gave up more and more of who I was to my addiction, I became more and more willing to do anything to get the pill. I lied. I stole. I cheated. There became little I wouldn’t…
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When God is Wrong

I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11 It is not uncommon for the one experiencing painful consequences to cry out to God for deliverance. The one caught up in his disaster often turns to the…
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