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Am I Powerless or Do I Have a Choice?

In him was life, and the life was the light of men. John 1:4 Modern medicine sees addiction as a disease and step one of AA teaches that I’m powerless over my disease. I objected to these concepts initially, because I needed to believe that I wasn’t simply a hopeless victim and that I had…
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Do I Hear God Speaking?

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. John 1:1 When first compelled to address my chemical dependency problem, I was instructed by some in the church that I didn’t need treatment or AA. All you need is Jesus. I was told that any attempt to…
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Breaking the Habit

Repentance for the forgiveness of sins should be proclaimed in his name to all nations . . . Luke 24:47 Whenever I meet someone in clinic who has successfully quit smoking, I ask how they did it. Most have tried several times, failing repeatedly, and then committed to some significant change in behavior before finding…
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Everything Seems Worse at Night

We had hoped that he was the one to redeem Israel. Luke 24:21 Ever since I was a child, if I’ve ever had anything to worry about, it’s always been worse at night. If my mind is troubled, it’s that quiet time before sleep comes, during which my problems seem to grow. The light of…
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What is Recovery?

Why do you seek the living among the dead? He is not here, but has risen. Luke 24:5-6 It’s difficult to describe the soul-crushing hopelessness of addiction to the non-addict. I wanted to stop using, but because I’d engaged in the behavior so many times, I was enslaved. I hated what I was doing, and…
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Jerks for Jesus

You will be hated by all for my name’s sake. Luke 21:17 In my drug addiction, I wanted nothing to do with AA or those in recovery. The light of their truth burned my eyes, exposing that which I desperately wanted to keep hidden in the dark. I don’t want or need your stupid recovery.…
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