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Amends

Then Abimelech took sheep and oxen, and male servants and female servants, and gave them to Abraham, and returned Sarah his wife to him. And Abimelech said, “Behold, my land is before you; dwell where it pleases you.” Genesis 20:14-15 While working through the twelve steps, eventually I got to step nine, which said I…
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When I Lied Yesterday

Abraham said, “I did it because I thought, There is no fear of God at all in this place, and they will kill me because of my wife.’ Besides, she is indeed my sister, the daughter of my father though not the daughter of my mother, and she became my wife.” Genesis 20:11-12 I lied…
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Save Me from Myself

Then God said to him in the dream, “Yes, I know that you have done this in the integrity of your heart, and it was I who kept you from sinning against me. Therefore I did not let you touch her. Genesis 20:6 Prior to my last relapse, I could sense God warning me. Don’t…
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Triggers

From there Abraham journeyed . . . and he sojourned in Gerar. And Abraham said of Sarah his wife, “She is my sister.” And Abimelech king of Gerar sent and took Sarah. Genesis 20:1-2 In treatment, my chemical dependency counselors wisely insisted I work on Relapse Prevention, identifying triggers that caused me to once use…
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Me First

So they made their father drink wine that night. And the firstborn went in and lay with her father. He did not know when she lay down or when she arose. Genesis 19:33 At the core of the destructive behavior of addiction, is a profound self-centeredness. It’s not that those addicted weigh their needs against…
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When My Friends Made Me Eat Ice Cream

So they made their father drink wine that night. Genesis 19:33 My wife and I went out to dinner with friends the other night. It was a good time, and I made healthy choices at the restaurant. When we were done though, someone (it may have been me) suggested that we go across the street…
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When God Wanted Me to Use Drugs

Now Lot went up out of Zoar and lived in the hills . . . So he lived in a cave with his two daughters. And the firstborn said to the younger, “Our father is old, and there is not a man on earth to come in to us after the manner of all the…
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Clinging to the Self-Destructive

As morning dawned, the angels urged Lot, saying, “Up! Take your wife and your two daughters who are here, lest you be swept away in the punishment of the city.” But he lingered. Genesis 19:15-16 I’ll not go into the reasons, but historically, smoking has been welcome in many recovery settings. I’ve been to Narcotic…
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Provoking the Beehive

The two angels came to Sodom in the evening, and Lot was sitting in the gate of Sodom. Genesis 19:1 I got stung by a couple of bees yesterday. It was my own fault. In the woods of our property, for some reason, a previous owner buried an old box spring years ago. I’ve been…
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Why Do You Care About Them?

Will you indeed sweep away the righteous with the wicked? Suppose there are fifty righteous within the city. Will you then sweep away the place and not spare it for the fifty righteous who are in it? Genesis 18:23-24 Nine years ago this week, with my life an absolute wreck, I sat in treatment at…
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