Author: Scott

God of Losers

Now Jephthah the Gileadite was a mighty warrior, but he was the son of a prostitute. Judges 11:1 When I was a kid, I imagined, hoped, and prayed that God would make me an amazing athlete. I promised God that if he did so, I’d give him all the credit so that everyone watching would…
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When I Couldn’t Instantly Fix My Marriage

“Go and cry out to the gods whom you have chosen; let them save you in the time of your distress.” And the people of Israel said to the LORD, “We have sinned; do to us whatever seems good to you. Only please deliver us this day.” So they put away the foreign gods from…
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It Gets Harder Every Time

Did I not save you from the Egyptians and from the Amorites, from the Ammonites and from the Philistines? . . . Yet you have forsaken me and served other gods; therefore I will save you no more. Judges 10:11-13 A year or two ago, my wife and I committed to a new way of…
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Fake Remorse

And the people of Israel cried out to the LORD, saying, “We have sinned against you, because we have forsaken our God and have served the Baals.” Judges 10:10 A while back, my wife and I were discussing the life problems of an acquaintance whose terrible choices had been dragged into the light. Enduring painful…
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Embarrassed By Our Parents

After Abimelech there arose to save Israel Tola the son of Puah, son of Dodo . . . Judges 10:1 I assume that it’s every parent’s job to embarrass their children occasionally. My mother was a teacher, and my father was a pastor, so I couldn’t get away with much at either school or church.…
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A Thousand Little Deaths

Thus God returned the evil of Abimelech, which he committed against his father in killing his seventy brothers. Judges 9:56 As tragic as a drug overdose death is, a literal, physical life is hardly the only thing killed by an addiction. Several times lately, while sharing stories with those who’re addicted, I’ve heard them speak…
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Reputation Manipulation

Then he called quickly to the young man his armor-bearer and said to him, “Draw your sword and kill me, lest they say of me, ‘A woman killed him.’” Judges 9:54 In my addiction, I desperately desired to control the narrative of my life. I wanted to keep my dark secret a secret, while promoting…
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The Hair of the Dog

And God sent an evil spirit between Abimelech and the leaders of Shechem, and the leaders of Shechem dealt treacherously with Abimelech . . . Judges 9:23 The chaos of my addiction made for a miserable life. Yes, the high of the drug provided immediate gratification, but the high wore off and then the misery…
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The Guilty Conscience

Now therefore, if you acted in good faith and integrity . . . with Jerubbaal and with his house this day, then rejoice in Abimelech, and let him also rejoice in you. Judges 9:16-19 Prior to my knee replacement, multiple injuries and multiple surgeries meant chronic pain. When I had my first steroid injection, the…
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Addiction Sickens the Whole Family

And he went to his father’s house at Ophrah and killed his brothers the sons of Jerubbaal, seventy men, on one stone. Judges 9:5 In my addiction, one of the lies I told myself was that my drug use couldn’t hurt anyone as long as I kept it a secret. I really thought that I…
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